WAIT… TIME TO VENT

OMFG I JUST HAD TO WRITE THIS SOMEWHERE CAUSE WOW ITS NOT ME ITS YOU. DEFINITELY YOU.

so i met someone. long distance. very very long distance. started out nice. we first met years ago, but never started talking until this year. it was like last december around my birthday. how nice. and thru talking and texting we became close. very close. but all happy beginning has a 63% chance of rain. he got mad at me a lot. A LOT. some things in the beginning, i admit ya i made a mistake. but then he got mad for small things such as going to do something real quick while chatting on msn. sorry my responses were too slow for u. or going on facebook while talking to u on the phone. its not a crime. is that mean of me? i think im ADD, i like to multitask. its what i get from working at starbucks. im sorry u cant have my attention 100% 24/7. then it got to “why didnt u text/talk to me?” idk? maybe im sick of always being the first one to talk to you. why cant YOOOUU talk to me first? is that a male ego shit or what? and when i say im not the type of girl whos good at making you feel happy and better all the time. face it. not whine about it. im not gunna use cute baby voices and kiss ur ass okay? im just like that. i even told u i was a major tomboy. and there was a time when i thought hey he gets it that im not the girly girl that he expected me to be. goodie! but no. you cant train an old dog new tricks. so i test it out. i dont talk to you for a day or two. and you dont talk to me either. then u tell me that i never talk to u and that ur mad about something? MAD ABOUT WHAT THIS TIME MOTHER FKER?! that was mean.. but im not gunna delete it. and srsly? am i always supposed to start the convo? always supposed to kiss ur booboo when ur mad? guess why ur mad? im sry if im too dense to get it or maybe u just get mad for such little things that normal people brush off so i dont get it! so eventually i let out my frustration. i just let it all out and you just say “okay sorry”. wth is that. what am i gunna do? break it off bitch. cause you suck. and all u have to say to me is “lol arnt we done?” well F U C K Y O U. i was listening to my ipod on shuffle while i was driving and Brian Joo’s “Because We Don’t Love Eachother” came on. story of my life. and reading that rererererereblogged post about what ashton kutcher said made me think that its sooo true. and long distance sucks.

Am i gunna miss him? i hate being hated and hating someone. its too much work. so yes. i will miss you. and i had really fun times with you. ill probably talk to you once i calm down. but ya. for the both of our sakes. we don’t work out well. maybe we’ll be friends, maybe not. maybe youre too immature to get over it. its all up to God now. and sorry God for cursing so much.